Thursday, April 14, 2011
Day 32: Everyone Needs a Cheerleader!
Do people feel judged when I show up at play dates with fresh fruits and veggies for my kids??? (they have bear paws and juice boxes) I don't know? Do they? Do people feel threatened by the idea that I can juggle feeding my family healthy nutritious meals most of the time, while still finding time to take care of my home and myself (going to the gym and finding time to pursue my own hobbies) In my experience most people want to know "how I do it" and when I give suggestions, it's literally as I'm talking , I can see the defense mechanism kick in and an excuse "to the why not" is what I hear. But are they actually thinking "well she's home all day! she doesn't have a job! I've seen her house, phft* it's not THAT clean! I can't leave my kids to work out, that would make me selfish! It must be nice to have a husband that will put the kids to bed the nights she works out!" I don't know what people think! Obviously! But what I do get are negative vibes and excuses.
Don't get me wrong, people don't go out of there way to tell me "I'm mean" because I don't give my kids juice when we are out. They don't push cookies on my kids when they know I don't want my kids to eat "refined sugar", well actually some do. But ultimately what I am struggling with is how to "be me" without making other people feel bad! I just want to lead by example, but the problem is, if you know me - you know this to be the very core of me- I am passionate and I love to talk and share what I know! But at what point is "it to much", when do I stop talking and sharing and just "LIVE", should I, temper/filter myself? Should I care what other people think? Or should I care about how my ripples are affecting other peoples lives (and making them uncomfortable)?
My cheerleaders would say "screw em!" live your life to it's fullest expression. Live and shine and dream big and experience everything life has to offer. To hell with the ripples of insecurity you are causing! Let them deal with their own lives. We each have on life to live and why waste any time, worrying about what other people "think" about our choices and our lives.
...and of course the annoying little voice in my heart says "but I do care about what people feel! I care because that is who I am! I don't want to upset anyone!"