Am I the only one that doesn't get to sit down till now? I don't really mind it because I'm sure it means I'm burning more calories as I'm running around all day and so I can have that glass of wine when I do get to sit down. Even this morning when I took the boys to the early years center to play, I would have (a year ago) totally sat down and drank coffee while chatting with other mom's but today it was run run run... Patrick kept getting picked on, eating marker's and trying to get in the paint. No down time for me. Well that's a lie. By the time I got everyone back home and served lunch, I was getting sleepy, I shouldn't be putting decaf in the coffee maker. Patrick almost threw himself in the crib to sleep but Luke was pretty cranky and wanted to lie down with me in my bed. I can't lie, I didn't mind one bit. Plus I did fall asleep for a while :) sigh*** that was the best. Then it was wake up and go go go (again). Pick up Annaliese, start diner, read her the french books she has to return for "reading marathon", serve diner, start to clean up, run out the house to the gym, and then finally make it back home to finish cleaning up and sit down to eat my bowl of yogurt. I should tell you what my most favorite post workout out snack is, since I've been eating it for almost over a year.
Hot Yogurt bowl
~ a cup of frozen berries
~ 3-4 tsp of chia seeds
~ 1/2 cup of no-fat greek yogourt (plain)
~ 1/3 cup of no sugar added crunchy cereal (that I mix up myself from 2 or 3 different types of cereal - I also add sunflower seeds and chopped raw almonds for extra crunch)
I melt the berries in micro for about 3 1/2 minutes, sprinkle the chia seeds over berries, add yogourt and top with cereal. Mix and enjoy. It's got tons of protein, healthy fats, fiber and best of all NO SUGAR!!! (other than what the berries add)
Part of what helps me cope with everyday chaos is that I start the day off by eating the same cereal mix and end it eating the same thing (when I workout). If I don't workout I try to take it easy on the food. But then again it's the weekend and I also tend to splurge a bit more. I know most people go crazy if they don't have variation but I think I love the comfort of not having to think about things. I love routine, it makes my life so much easier. As a side note, I'm sure many of you aren't interested, but blah to you... My breakfast is always (unless it's Sunday morning pancakes of course), 1/2 cup of no sugar added Alpen by weetabix, 1/2 cup of unsweetened vanilla almond milk, 3 or 4 tsp of chia seeds, 1/2 cup of berries or fruit.
I'm not really sure why I'm so focused on food today. Probably because I've been feeling like my weight is stuck. Sure that's a great thing, maintenance, but I want to be down another 10lbs. Which now that I've just typed it down seems kind of stupid since Mark and I are trying to get pregnant. Maybe that's what the issue is, I'm afraid of all the weight I'm going to gain (and conversely have to lose post baby). Ugghh body weight... such drama. I'm not sure why I can't just be happy. What happened to me as child that makes it so that I'm never really happy with what I am. I distinctly recall once in grade 6, I was walking up the stairs to get in the school and the few girls that were sitting down started to make the "boom boom boom" noise as I climbed the stairs and went into the school. I can't recall what I did, because all I remember is what I felt. And every now and then I feel that feeling again. I feel like every step I take up, I'm losing my confidence. I have a pain in my chest because I know I'll never measure up. I wish I could be happy with my size (what ever it is), but especially now because I've worked so hard at it. People do comment on how amazing I look, but for some reason I don't buy it, it doesn't actually register. Why the hell is that? Is this just me, or most women in general. We should have a bloody support group. And also if you are happy with the way you are... Please please please tell me what you say to yourself, how you keep feeling that way perhaps what I can do to start myself on that journey. Because I guess part of being a happier person would start from being happy within. I should be happy with myself. I should love myself right? But I don't. I don't love my stretch marks (yes, they are battle scars of bearing 3 children, but still Yuk!), I don't love my arms (even though they do have some definition), I don't love my legs (even though I did squats on a stability ball) .... I'm sure it's too late for me, but how can I at least teach my kids to love themselves and be happy with their body. I know I'm definitely not going to tell them they need to go on a diet (or that they have too much blubber - like my dad used to say to me). I'll just cook good food, put them in sports and try to teach them to make healthy choices. But will that be enough? Anyone want to weight in here? what works and doesn't?