Tuesday, May 31, 2011
My layer of SLOW!!! (is annoying)
Here are a few that I randomly use:
I never did this with the other 3 pregnancies, I didn't beat myself up. But for the last two day's I have been punishing myself!!! I can barely walk (which will pass of course). But yesterday I did body pump then attack and tonight I did combat then body pump. I have been eating tons of protein and trying to cut back on sugar, eating as clean as possible. I'm pretty sure I can maintain it until the weekend of course. But according to my data and calculations I am about 2-4 lbs overweight for week 17. So this is what I'm talking about.. my layer of slow. It's annoying and I want it gone, it is sucking my energy away, especially with all this heat that we are getting, and it looks icky! Of course I realize that said layer of slow is not going anywhere, it is very possibly going to get even slower!!! ahkkkk... The thing is I know, what I should know, but for some reason my mind is fighting it... With this being my 4th pregnancy I wanted to re-write the rules, I wanted to be just a belly without all the extra "slowness" or "insulation" however you look at it... But I just don't think my body is cooperating with my idea's. I'm struggling because being pregnant I allow myself some "extra's" but at the same time, I look at the results and I think logically, those extra's are too much so I should just go back to the "eat clean" basics. No extra's (unless it's Saturday or Sunday)
Well if this wasn't a rant... I'm not sure what is..
Ps.. Doesn't the baby look like an alien?