Update, up to date, the date, a date...

Funny how all those mean something so very different.  I've been meaning to blog and every time I pull out my computer... all hell breaks lose around here.  I have about 20 minutes because Mark took all 4 kids grocery shopping after the bus stop pick up, so I"m going to type as fast as I can.  

So here is my update: my contract has been bumped up to 83% (almost nearly full time) but with the added bonus of having Monday morning off and Wednesday afternoon off !  It has taken many months to finally iron out the kinks in the kids schedule, my schedule, Marks new work schedule - yes he is still home full time with the 2 youngest kids but he works on Friday night and Sundays' at Longo's still- and my workout schedule.  I am officially starting to slowly get back into to "training mode" for my triathlon.  I plan on doing my first one in June (brrr cold water) so that means 5 months to train.  I have begun running on the treadmill, doing spin classes, adding in endurance style weights and resistance training (things called super sets) - they suck and make me want to cry and puke all at the same time - but it's all in the name of training. 

I have been terrible at keeping up to date with this blog.  I have this pressure on myself to be able to do all the things that I used to do before I was working, when I was home all day with kids.  I know it sounds stupid, I mean of course I cant' do what I used to do!  But I still feel as though it needs to be done.  It's not like Mark is going to be making me a vegan/GF meal at night in addition to a regular meal (he is trying ... but it's all a learning curve also for him) So I'm still cooking, working out 5 times a week, eating healthy, being a mom (cooking for me, occasionally for the kids), cleaning/tidying/laundry - these are shared chores now at least, knit and watch Dexter on netflix and True Blood, I do read still and enjoy a glass of wine when I can find some!  (aka afford it)

So many important dates... but the one that is stressing me out the most is Feb 11th, the day my report cards are due.  I haven't done report cards in 5 years!!!! OMG I have nothing, no comments, nada/zip/zilsh... I have to write them out for the 10 classes I teach... oh man...I hate doing things like that where I will be judged, corrected.  I could never be a writer, having someone constantly criticising you work... it would kill me!

And finally a date... wouldn't that be a romantic concept.  I deserve one! Can someone please take me out!

Late night comfort food.

In the bottom pot: mushrooms, tomatoes, coconut oil, garlic powder and a bit of salt. 

Ingredients for tomorrow's lunch: tempeh, bag of athlete's greens, tomato, orange pepper,  half a jar of curry sauce. And some water.

Post yoga very late night snack. I know I'm not supposed to eat late at night but I figured if I'm going to it might as well have very few carbs.

While i was eating this just simmered for about 10 mins. Not to long, because I don't want all the nutrients changed and enzymes killed off. 

Day 3 and 4

I meditated yesterday but I think too late at night because the bell woke me up, actually it scared me silly.  Today is a bit earlier than yesterday (mind you not by much) but I just could not focus on meditating.  I tried,at one point I was breathing in (saying the mantra) and exhaling (saying the mantra) and even though I know I was mentally thinking the mantra, I was still caught up in my brain drama.  Something happened today, a negative experience, and even though I was trying not to perseverate on it, it kept creeping in my thoughts.  Sort of like an annoying bug bite.  Little and itchy.  So then I thought, this has got to stop.  Obviously I'm not able to chant the mantra, I may as well throw in that towel and try to think about something that might cause me to have more positive experiences at work.  I was thinking of ways that I could help others.  Since it is clear I cannot change some peoples negative energy, I can at least try to attract more joy into mine by spreading it! Which happen to be Day 3's

Centering Thought:

“Today, I focus on what I want to attract into my life.”